what matters most: CS LEWIS

You can find his books all over our house...with the tenants of wisdom that have crossed the decades embedded in them--

Worn, cover-missing, edge curled versions of the "Chronicles of Narnia" reside next to the new, beautifully crafted and illustrated hard back versions.

Lewis's poignantly told love story bears some tear stains , branded on a few gripping, but delicate pages.

And, a favorite... The Screwtape Letters, is well marked up and underlined in all colors , having been loved with hands of all sizes, as it has been read and re-read by each of us.

So, a remark from one of his books seems especially appropriate when I am lacking in words to express thoughts...and for some reason, that fit this week.

Its been a week of priority shifting, and goal making, and planning, thinking...and reflecting.

And while I've done those things, the not so pleasant thoughts that go with those "forward thinking spurts" started to creep in...and I listened...

Like the reminders to me of my impatience,
of the things I wish I had said, and the one I regret that I DID say.
Mistakes, missed moments,
the things I feel sad about,
Loved ones that need an apology from me...
Events and people that I need to forgive,... and I need to ask forgiveness of.
Some big stuff, allot of little stuff.
Stuff I need to let go of, and stuff I need to do something about.

And,... With gut honesty, I made a promise to myself, and asked our Loving Father God to help me do just those things, those things above that need my attention...
I asked Him with His kind grace to guide me.

Because, it matters...

and I don't want to waste a moment ...

"The difference [God's] timelessness makes is that this now (which slips away from you even as you say the word now) is for Him infinite."

--Letters (1 August 1949)

HOW REFRESHING IT IS TO RELINQUISH ALL TO HIM, ASK HIM TO FORGIVE AND RENEW ME...ONCE AGAIN. BECAUSE HE NEVER GROWS WEARY OF DOING JUST THAT ...